Weigh-in day today and I'm not happy. I lost half a pound. Half a pound, ffs! I have been sooo good this week, only had one minor slip up in York and I've been exercising pretty much every day, eating fruit, remembering breakfast and to eat regularly and all that comes off is half a frigging pound.

I feel so disheartened with it all. I tried so hard this week and barely shifted anything - what hope is there for me if this is how it goes? I'm so frustrated. Terrified too - I only have 4 and a half weeks to go before I have to somehow squeeze into an economy seat to Italy. I barely fitted when I went to New York and I was almost 2 stone lighter then and that was a seat for a long haul flight so probably wider than the one I'm gonna have to fit into in just over a month. What am I gonna do? If I lose half a pound a week for 4 weeks, that's only a 2 pound loss and that's if I try my best like I have this week. Arrrrghhhh.

I was so convinced I'd do well this week and now I feel gutted - like I should have stuffed my face at the BBQ and had what I wanted at the picnic and in York cos it wouldn't have made a difference anyway.

Alex reckons I would have lost more if we hadn't gone to Nandos for lunch today as we had quite a late lunch there. I was within my points but he says it was probably still lying on my stomach. I think he's just trying to make me feel better but it's not working!

The leader was a bit crap too. She's so vague and disinterested. She's always jolly enough but it's like WeightWatchers patented jolliness...it seems a bit false. I tried to tell her how disappointed I was, as I thought she was there to support but she just shrugged it off and told me to get focused on the fact I'd lost weight, she didn't even ask why I was disappointed. I felt like I was being dismissed so didn't even stay for the meeting, just came home to fume to Alex, the poor bastard!

Right, what can I do? I'm so tempted to give in to these feelings and just give up on it all but I've done that so many times before and that's not gonna make this holiday to Italy vanish or the plane seats magically become a foot wider.

I'm going to try and cut my points down a bit this week, see if that helps as it's getting desperate now. I will stick to 28 points a day (supposed to be 32). I'll also make sure I do at least 15 mins of activity a day - whether it's playing something strenuous on the Wii or walking, I'll schedule that time each day. Food wise, I have my meals planned til Friday and will stick to them.

I have had to think on my feet a bit this week - things like days out, BBQs, picnics and the like to factor in but this week should be a little easier in that respect. I have Elizabeth's hen night on Fri when we're going for a meal but I'll try and look at the menu before I go to the restaurant and make my choices in advance.

Right, there are my goals for the week. Let's hope it gets better than this week :( Any suggestions?