Ok, I need to be more conscious regarding my eating habits and this diet I'm on. I need to start looking at these snappily named SMART goals and stop being so damn vague about everything.

First, the good stuff. Back in June 2006, I weighed 26 stone 9lbs. By the time I went to Cuba in March 2008 I weighed 22st 9lbs. That's a four stone loss, 56 lbs. Well done me. I never really allowed myself to appreciate how well I did getting to that point as I was so wound up with how much was left to lose.

I want to stop being like that, I would like to record and appreciate every little loss and celebrate it, set some small goals and reward myself each time I reach one. I want to document my weight loss journey, both the highs and the lows. I know I distance myself from my emotions and my habits - perhaps this will be a way of picking up on underlying patterns that I've not been aware of.

So, with that in mind, here's where I am now: I had a relapse following my holiday to Cuba. Last year I lost sight of what I wanted and found it exceedingly difficult to restrict my impulsive eating habits. I put on weight again and when I decided to get back onto the rickety wagon in late Feb this year, I weighed 25st. I would have screamed at myself, but obviously I'm far too repressed to do that!

I'm now down to 24st 4.5lbs. It's still a good bit heavier than this time last year but it is what it is and I can either get hung up on that and give it all up as a bad job or I can start again, keep going and see what happens.

It's an exhausting merry-go-round and all I want to do is eat what I want, when I want it. It angers my self destructive, indulgent side that I have to think about what I'm eating and moderate it - it feels as though I'm depriving myself of something - I'll even start convincing myself how I deserve to have pizza tonight and that I shouldn't have to have something healthy.

However, if I want to change things for myself, then I do have to watch myself. Alas, I'm not one of those annoying people who can ingest their weight in chocolate and never have it show on the scales.

So, I'm going to make some mini goals, for this week and then for this month:

* I will limit myself to one take away. I'll do this by making sure I plan my meals in advance, the night before if possible.

* I will eat at least one piece of fruit a day.

* On Thursday, Saturday and Monday I will go for a walk of at least 10 minutes and I will attend my exercise class on Wednesday and investigate the swimming class in Guisborough.

* I will try and document my feelings in this blog every few days as well record any achieved goals.

* I will stick to my WW points each day and aim for a 2lb weight loss this week - if achieved, I will buy myself a new album or DVD.

* By 15 May, I will aim toward a goal weight of 23st 8.5lbs - a loss of 10lbs. My holiday to Italy will be reward enough for this achievement.

Right, let's see how it goes.